Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Already Forgiven.....

Awhile ago I did a post on why do we as Christians feel the need to ask God to forgive us of our sins.
I still am so amazed that God has removed my sin, all of it, and He doesn't even see it! Yahoo! So because it is a finished work there is no need to feel guilty and plead for forgiveness, or to have to wait to be forgiven or to fear God won't forgive you! It's done! 
Anyway, I do believe that confessing our sin for our own benefit to God is a good idea, so we can again thank Him that He already had forgiven us and show our gratitude. 
Today Steve McVey addressed this issue in his 101 lies series check it out here;

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Making God's Passion Our Passion....

Alas, I am getting to the message from Sunday...and I must confess, this was difficult to transcribe due to the amount of passion Don had while preaching. Too hard to keep up with a man in the flow of the Spirit! Anyway, I want to get a bit of the message out in public, but this was one of those messages that everything built on each thing he said from the beginning and I just couldn't bring myself to reduce the message to just notes and to transcribe it would have been a bit much. So, I am attempting to see if I can't upload the message somehow and make it available in MP3 format. 
I am willing to mail a copy of it to anyone who would like a copy and I will have my email available on my blog in short order. Please feel free to email me and I will get you a copy of this message. (lydiajgrewell@yahoo.com)
In the meantime here is a tid bit of the introduction;
"What does it mean to be the body of Christ? What does it mean to be a church, a local expression of God's mighty work across the world?
At least in part, it means weeping with those who weep, rejoicing with those who rejoice learning and growing together, we can't feel exactly each other's pain and sometimes we can't even relate - but, we can LOVE.
We must step back and recover God's passion and vision for his church. What is it He is looking for? What is it that He desires? How, first and foremost, does He even view us as His people?
We need to overcome the Crisis of Modern Disillusionment(both the world's and our own) & Recover God's Perspective and Passion. 
The church has not always been a delight, we've all had challenges....that which God desires to see is not always our experience. The church has become so many things, - it has become a grand experiment, try everything and anything, grow it big enough to make a mark or leave an impression, it has become a business enterprise. Our world today is filled more with churches who seem concerned with displaying something humanly grand than encountering God, and displaying the grandness of God.
(We will be surveying the book of Ephesians for vision.)  

Monday, January 28, 2008

Too good to keep to myself

Blogging has become to me, far more than I ever thought or dreamed.....I know I know, I said I was bored with it not that long ago, but I have been re-inspired.....there are so many others in the blog world that have such a wealth of wisdom, truth, passion and experience to share and I am so grateful to be able to glean from them as well as form friendships over the world wide web. The message of grace is too good to be silent about,  and too good not to share and too good not to be passionate about and inspired by....so I must share some of the great posts I have been enjoying lately.
Yesterday I read a post on one of Dan Bowen's many blogs, that really met me where I am at currently. I have been wrestling with how I want more of God, I want to experience more of the many wonderful things God has for us, healing  and just His manifest presence among other things. I am not satisfied to just go to church, worship with others and be taught, I want it ALL! Anyway, he wrote a post entitled, Disappointed? Today an angel might come and stir the pool. You absolutely must read it! 
Also I have been enjoying Dan's blog "Life on Wings." on which a pastor friend of his, Peter Day just wrote an excellent post, Overturning the tables of legalism. I highly recommend reading this along with the wealth of comments that came in response to it! 
I have also been enjoying Steve McVey's blog, where he is currently posting in video format 101 lies taught in church every Sunday. Boy, have those been cool to watch and hear! I think what he is doing with this is revolutionary and so helpful as we have been taught so much legalism and haven't even realized it!
And one more for now,  Grace in Flood's blog, Gregg Booyens, has a fabulous blog with his journey into grace and has a few friends joining with him, one that is a pastor in South Africa, that has recently had a huge transformation in his church due to the Grace message, and he posts sermon notes regularly that are too good to miss out on! One of my favorites of late, is by Gregg's friend Roy, Warts n' All. 
Also check out Joel's blog, Matt's blog, Bino's blog, and of course the one who inspired me to start a blog in the first place, Julie's blog. And might I add Julie just did a most outstanding job on her latest post, Should we be cross centered?

Sunday, January 27, 2008

If you resist sin, will you become more Godly??????

Sharing the wealth...(so to speak)

My family has been attending a new church called Grace Community Church, that began this past fall. To me one of the huge benefits of this new church is the preaching of the word. Every week I look forward to what I will be taught. So I decided that I would transcribe a portion of the message each week (since it is hard to take notes often with the baby....) and put it up on my blog. The messages are not yet available online to download so I felt this would be a way to get this great teaching out to anyone else who may benefit and I would benefit further from a more indepth listening.......so stay tuned for that!!!!
This past week I posted a bit of the message, The Benefit of building on the Sovereign, saving Grace of our triune God,  done by Don Shorey last Sunday. Just FYI.....

Friday, January 25, 2008

My thoughts on the marriage relationship.....

For years the church I attended seemed to value the marriage relationship very highly....which initially seemed great!!! Who doesn't want to have a greater marriage in all areas.....?
Over time, we heard alot of the same "high standards" for our marriages, respect, submission, communication, parenting, date nights, intimacy, encouraging one another...and a whole other host of specifics...no subject was exhausted enough......the more we heard about how to have a godly marriage the higher the bar got and the more we fell short and failed and held each other responsible for not getting their part right.....
It seems to me the marriage relationship was elevated above our individual relationship with the Lord....we were taught about that too, but in a "need to" spend time with God way....It's almost like a formula for success in marriage was being painted over and over.....so I focused on my marriage more than God.....I felt like a failure because my marriage looked nothing like the results the formula were supposed to create......I kept crying out to God to restore my marriage and allow it to be fruitful and a blessing....but the more books I read about "how to walk out my specific role" in marriage, the more messages, meetings and accountability sessions with other women the more I felt desperate and like I would NEVER get it right!!! 
I noticed that at every wedding I went to within the church the same scriptures were read, almost everyone wrote their own vows and they all sounded the same as the last wedding I had been at. Why is that? Finally this summer I went to a wedding not in my same church but the same family of churches and lo and behold, same scriptures, same type of message, same type of vows.....! I was so frustrated and honestly, angry. Why do we turn our marriages into duty into seperate roles and our part.....what good is it doing? Now I don't say this to be unkind or uncharitable to anyone who chose to have this way of a wedding ceremony, I myself had one just like it! It was just the way it was done! But I really thought, "Lord why is this bothering me so much...I honestly don't want to rebel against You, but this can't be all there is...." I want to be loved for ME, not how well I perform in my role as a wife!!
I began to contemplate how much we were taught that the marriage relationship is a meant to be a picture of Christ and the church, and that unbelievers would see a Gospel message through our marriages....and today it dawned on me....they emphasize the marriage so much because they so desperately want to BE that picture......of Christ and His church!!! The problem is they have it all backwards....trying to have an excellent marriage and fulfill the Ephesians 5 passage by walking out each aspect and striving to have their marriages "look" this way.....but you see what I have come to realize is that, that completely defeats the whole point I believe God would have us understand.......now that I have come to an understanding of Grace, I want to first and foremost know my God, I have fallen in love with Him because of grace and I want my life to portray the Ephesians picture, but it's not me doing my role well, it's me resting in God, allowing His very life to flow through me, as me...the more I marvel at His Awesome gifts, His Grace, His abounding love for me, the more I have a heart of love, compassion, acceptance for others....I no longer focus on a right way of "doing" marriage....I don't have to, it just happens!!!! Woohoo!!! We are growing rapidly in ways I only dreamed of all these years, I can't believe it!! I love God, I love my husband, truly truly. Does this mean we have it all figured out? Does this mean we look a certain way? Does this mean we don't still argue or fight? Or mess up? NO! But our hearts are tender to each other, we have a ton more respect for who each other is, because we know who we are in Christ - we know about God's wonderful thoughts about us!!! We are still a mess in alot of ways, but we don't hold things over each other or against each other.....as we long for more intimacy with our God, and experience it......it just naturally overflows into our marriage relationship!!!! This is a HUGE miracle! A bondage lifted and freedom granted!! Praise be to God - He is so faithful, He is so GOOD to us, he NEVER leaves us or forsakes us!!! He longs to give us wonderful gifts, our marriage being one he wants to bless us with!!! (no marriage is not only for our santicfication! After all he gave Adam and Eve each other before there was any sin in the world! ) I believe our marriages are meant to be grace and blessing and joy to us, and yes we can learn and grow too!!! 
So is marriage hard work? I suppose that would depend on how you view God and how He thinks of you......marriage can be hard for sure, but should it feel like hard work...???
It's all about God, He wants to be known for His Grace and Glory, He wants to lavish us with His love, just because He does, He is Love, so He LOVES to love us....experiencing this in a real way, knowing this, not just in my head but in my heart has made me to revel in HIM!!! Our marriage can look like that picture of Christ and His bride, because He is the most Amazing Bridegroom -and naturally we will respond with our hearts full of passion for HIM!!!! 


Wednesday, January 23, 2008

A prayer request....!

A dear friend of mine just called me today to let me know she is having a miscarriage, please pray for her and her family, they have been through so much already this past year! Pray that she will feel God's loving embrace around her, his compassion for her and for healing.....!
I know God works all things for his good purpose, and heals the broken hearted and binds their wounds, I know God is the God of all comfort, His name even means compassionate, I imagine Jesus shedding tears with her, but when we are in the midst of difficulties such as this, it can be but a shadow and a dream we hope for one day -the pain is just so real and so present now, it's hard to hold out for peace and have faith in these truths,  and it's hard to be comforted......please lift her up as the Lord leads.....


Monday, January 21, 2008

The Benefit of building on the Sovereign, Saving Grace of our Triune God...

So, I decided to post a bit of the message I heard yesterday, preached by Don Shorey. He introduced a series and a general plan for preaching that would begin with an in-depth study of 1 Peter. Anyway, there was a certain section of the message that, to me, was very encouraging. So, I listened to it again so that I could transcribe a portion of it, as the messages are not yet available online. 

"I believe great benefit will arise from the in-depth study of 1 Peter, because it builds from the beginning on the Sovereign and saving grace of our Triune God. 
If you try and go through a letter like this and stop at the what to do parts and start trying to learn the what to do parts you would very quickly, maybe see your life change in some way just by behaviour change, but if you do that without stopping to step back and look at the way a letter like this is written you will miss the point. You will miss the point of the Gospel and you will miss what will really transform your life. 
From the beginning of this letter the truth Peter wants to bring into these people's lives - Yes he does want to see their lives transformed, yes he does want to see them grow into the image of Christ, yes he does want to see them be faithful to God even in difficult circumstances, but this is not a manual for behaviour change. It is a display of the unfolding effect of the Gospel in Your lives and so from the very beginning of the letter, it is rooted not just in the gospel in general, but in God's nature to save. In His Sovereign saving activity! 
Peter even chooses in these very first verses to make clear that the whole of God, that triune nature, that we don't comprehend or grasp, but we believe and see the richness of - the whole of God is occupied in our salvation, through the Gospel, Peter realizes that's what's going to redefine these people's, that's what's going to transform them in their difficult circumstances, and so verse 2, right in his greeting, before he's even getting to the substance, so to speak, of the letter, he says of them, You are elect according to the foreknowledge of God the Father, in the sanctification of the Spirit, for obedience and sprinkling of the blood of Jesus Christ. 

For the moment I want us to see the personalness of God's pursuit of us...Peter reminds these people that the WHOLE of God is leaning towards them, he reminds them that God the Father, God the Spirit and God the Son have set their heart towards them. Peter in essence says, You are sought by the Father, He pursued you, He desired you before you were even born.

People get all caught up between the doctrinal challenges of Calvinism and Armenianism, you know the essence of  Reformed theology that we would affirm - the essence is simply this - it's all about God and his desire to pursue us inexplicably by His grace. 
In a sense that's all it is - it's learning that not only is God gracious but loves His grace and wants to be known for His grace more than He wants to be known for anything else. 
And so He has set out from before time, perfectly designed, so He could pour out His Grace upon us- 

(Don quotes a bit of an old hymn)
I sought the Lord,  and afterward I knew He moved my soul, to seek Him seeking me, it was not I that found O Saviour true, no I was found of thee.....

-that reminder of God though by the mercy of God, He called us to run after Him, it was because he had been running after us. That's important, that's not just cold doctrine, that's not just historic theology - it defines our relationship with God.

We are sought by the Father, but we are also brought by the Holy Spirit, don't get confused by that word sanctification - we use it to talk about Christian change and transformation, that's not generally the New Testament use of the term. The NT use of the term sanctify, or to set apart speaks more to that initial work of Spirit regeneration. He sanctified us, he set us apart at that time. That's why Hebrews can say we are fully sanctified already - that doesn't fit the way we usually talk about progressive sanctification, but it is a complete work of setting apart, of making us holy as unto the Lord. It is that active, effective call by the Spirit, that calls us all, that sets us all apart. We will ALWAYS be apart, we will ALWAYS be that daughter or that son of God- that we have been appointed by His mercy to be. And so this statement, though it may not seem like it at first glance is a statement about the Father who wanted us, and the Spirit who brought us to Him, the Spirit who made it happen, who regenerated, who brought life ANEW in us, who called us when we were dead in our trespasses and sins. 

Peter summarizes the Gospel so beautifully by drawing the attention toward the real players - The Father, The Spirit and the Son of God Himself - so that we might feel the full weight of His affection & His Grace and His initiative towards us. He sets that out at the beginning of this letter. He sets it out while he's still saying "Hi". He hasn't even gotten to the main text yet, He's already sharing how God has pursued us.
This letter is saturated with the Gospel of God's great Grace. It is from beginning to end occupied, yes with seeing our lives changed and transformed by the richness of God's grace being known and loved and applied in our lives.

We will OFTEN speak more of that!! "

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Is Grace a very important Doctrine???

Meaningful Worship....

For so many years I have  enjoyed worshipping the Lord amidst the sea of folks gathered on a given Sunday. But today something dawned on me. All these years I have worshipped not fully understanding all the words I was singing, and not  fully understanding who God is and my position before him. At times I would worship just to lift MY spirits, and there were times when I  meant what I sang from my heart and sometimes had a hard time worshipping due to guilt or condemnation making  me feel I was not worthy to lift my voice to the Almighty God.  But today, today was different. For some weeks now I have enjoyed worshipping the Lord because I am falling madly in love with Him, ultimately because he sought me and 
showed me how awesome He is. Today as I worshipped I really lingered over the words 
that were being sung, and that's when I started smirking and grinning all over...
One of the songs we sang was a very familiar song I have sung it in church for years, but to be 
honest, I sang it and only grasped a small part of it. Today, I sang it and was so overwhelmed with joy because I realized the words I was singing were solidified in my heart. They are not just words, they ring true in my spirit! I thought how cool Lord, how cool is this moment that I can worship you even more fully and truly be lost in wonder and amazement as my heart rejoices over these truths that I am coming to greater and greater awareness of....here are the words to one verse and the chorus;
"Your Goodness found us in the darkness rescued us and freed us cleansed us from within, You saved us freely You forgave us, 
counted us as righteous heirs with your own Son, isn't He good isn't he kind, hasn't he blessed us time after time, isn't He good all of our days, with endless mercy and ceaseless praise, O let us sing He is good." 
What clicked for me today was the line, "counted us as righteous", actually it's not past tense, it's current day!!! God sees me as righteous ALL OF THE TIME!!! How totally awesome is that!!!
Another song was "A Debtor to Mercy"; 
A debtor to mercy alone Of covenant mercy I sing I come with your righteousness on My humble offering to bring The judgements of Your holy law  With me can have NOTHING to do  My Saviour's obedience and blood HIDE ALL my transgressions from view. (Just verse one) 
This one line struck me, my Saviour's obedience and blood hide all my trangressions from view. Wow! I was reading somewhere in an article, or maybe it was in a message I heard..well anyway, that God doesn't even see my sin. What?!?! 
That's right, my sin has been dealt with, all of it, it's not in His sight anymore, as far as the east is from the west, He sees me as RIGHTEOUS ONLY!!  This is amazing to me that for so many years I walked around feeling guilty and condemned and so focused on my poor performance when all the while God had accepted the perfect performance of Jesus, the spotless Lamb, and His sacrifice was satisfactory to God - my performance has nothing to do with what God did for me, my performance will never change the fact that I am declared Righteous because of Jesus. This is revolutionary to me because I am so much more amazed at what glorious things He has done on my behalf.....all these years all these worship songs with such deeper meaning than my heart ever grasped!! 

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Can you go too far with GRACE????


Thursday, January 17, 2008

Got the blues....

Boy I sure can relate to the Psalmist, good ole' David these days....I have always been an intensely internal person, a thinker and full of emotions, I am beginning to realize I am quite passionate...but for years my passion was kinda on the down low....and now that I am free to be me, free to have my emotions back (hard to explain what I mean here, but was always given a possible sin reason for my emotions over the years, kinda makes you not want to emote so much if you are just going to be charged of sinning...anyway...) ...I really relate to David, he had an intense passion for the Lord, he's either hot or cold, praising the Lord exuberantly with all of his heart, soul, mind and strength or crying out to God because he was in the midst of a trial or longing for God to speak to him, or longing for more of His presence...but always giving thanks to the Lord, always confident in God's character and power!! 

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Important Message!

God said that before He saved us we were powerless, ungodly, sinners and enemies of God. Ouch!!! Rom 5:6-10 You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God's wrath through him! For if, when we were God's enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life!

Now we are a new creation, born again, the old has gone and the new has come.

2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!

we are chosen by God, holy and dearly loved. Colossians 3:12 Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved

Our position in Christ is as firm as Gods word says it is Hebrews11:14 Perfect forever. 

It gets better too. He loves us with the SAME love He loves His beloved Son Jesus with. John 17:21-23 (Jesus prayer for all believers) Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one: I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me. Wow!!! 

Romans 8:31-35, 37, 38. What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all— how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died— more than that, who was raised to life— is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? ... No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. 

God wants us to get revelation of our position in Christ before we ‘Go’ anywhere or ‘Do’ anything. 

This is the empowering message of Grace. It is not about striving. It is about receiving. As we come under the spirit of wisdom and revelation, and ‘get’ that we have ‘already got’, we can experience unbroken fellowship and intimacy with God and the manifestation of Gods presence in our lives that will draw us deeper and deeper into the infinitude of Gods Love, Grace and Power. Heb 11: 19-25 Therefore, brothers, since we have confidence to enter the Most Holy Place by the blood of Jesus, by a new and living way opened for us through the curtain, that is, his body, and since we have a great priest over the house of God, let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching. 

(these are notes I found from City Church International's website, from a foundational Grace message,"Our position in Christ", Adam Howell)

True Colors.....

True Colors, Cyndi Lauper
-I have always loved this song. I have always felt a certain childlike happiness when I hear it, if that makes any sense. And since I have come to understand my position in Christ and who God says I am I have felt free to be who He made me to be, (that's why I named my blog A Joy to be Me, also my middle name is JOY) and this song has become a song I think of often. I think it inspires and shows compassion to those who are sad(or weary, feeling lost or longing for more than just the old bump and grind) Now my kids hear this song on PBS and they love it! I guess more and more I am realizing I want to be known for who I am, not what I do. God made me unique and I want to find out who I am, for so many years I tried to be someone I wasn't...now I know that is no way to live! We all have "true" colors inside, things that are special to each one of us...don't ever let anyone make you feel like who you are isn't valuable!!! God knows what he is doing, he knit us each together just the way he wanted us to be!!!

Love like no other.....

I confess, I don't know how to love. Love is complicated, messy even. There is no cookie cutter mold you can put yourself in called Love. Often times, I just wish there was a manual I could read and then just go and do it and it would work..
For years, I allowed myself to not "see" people, but see issues or problems to solve, like I could somehow just analyze what I saw and come up with a way to fix it, or them. Or just dish out my 2 cents.  I liked to categorize people and put them into their little boxes. That's what happens when your focus is on how to live "right" instead of how to love people for who they are. I just wanted to know what I had to do in order to be a good "Christian". Just like a good old Pharisee!  
Last year I read the book "Love Walked Among Us", and for the first time I really fell in love with Jesus. It helped me get to know Jesus better and to see how he always loved people first. Jesus wasn't walking around correcting people or giving them advice on how to live. He was so compassionate towards people, ALL people.  I can't imagine what it would be like to encounter Jesus.....but, the cool thing is He lives in me and wants to express His life through me.....not me "trying" to be like Jesus....Him being Him, flowing through me, expressing His Life and Love to others. That to me  is amazing! Refreshing! Freeing! 



Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Restoring the years!!!

Lately, I keep remembering the verse in Joel 2, about God restoring the years the locusts have eaten...
After going through many years of difficulty in our marriage, and our spiritual life, this past year everything had come to a head and we went through alot of heavy circumstances, moving from one state to another before our house sold, no job, baby due, no place to live,  living with my mother-in-law(talk about stress!!) , picking up and leaving my husband twice, counseling to no avail, deciding to leave our church, (which has been difficult and very grieving, kind of like a divorce)......hmm the only things missing were fire and death.(God IS merciful!) Anyway, I say all of this not to seek pity, but just to say God has begun to restore the years the locusts have eaten in many ways. So I decided to look up this passage and dig into it a little bit. 
In Joel 1:4, it explains what the locusts do..
4What the gnawing locust has left, the swarming locust has eaten;
         And what the swarming locust has left, the creeping locust has eaten;
         And what the creeping locust has left, the stripping locust has eaten. 

(So it seems as though there are more than one kind of locust, I think I have heard it that these are the different stages a locust goes through.) Anyway, the locusts don't stop until they devour all. Boy that is sure how it felt for us, like everything in our life was going wrong!!
I love this portion of Scripture in Joel 2:18-27, check it out! It's about God promising deliverance for His people!! It is very encouraging! 
So, I am taking this Scripture to heart, that God will restore the years! So far He has given us peace and joy! He is restoring our relationship with each other, we are becoming best friends, communication is finally clicking. We trust each other and accept each other(at least we are trying and it is a process!) We are overall happier, relationally speaking, it's quite refreshing from where things were. All these things are gifts to us from the Lord, we didn't DO one single thing to get to this place! I guess we just started to believe and have faith in what God's word says. We think differently, we are focused on Him instead of ourselves...all because of understanding the wonders and mysteries of His Gospel of Grace and His gift of Righteousness and our union with Christ!!! 
One thing I keep repeating is "God delights in me" and "HE delights in pouring His blessings on His precious children!"  Isn't God SO Awesome!! 

Monday, January 14, 2008

.....It's all Good!!!

I have come to a new understanding and appreciation for the verses "God causes all things to work together for the good of those who love him, according to his good purpose." Romans 8:28 
There have been times when I questioned "why is God allowing me this great pain I am going through, I don't understand, or at times in the past when I had misconceptions about God, I was tempted to think he was punishing me, but that just wasn't true. At times he may discipline me, because he loves me, but I am learning His discipline is so kind..really, I mean that, because I know He loves me, not always easy though....but what about the times when my life seemed like pure hell.....I know God can't be authoring these moments, days, weeks, months, years even....and why would he allow me to live in it soo long....anyway, I have come to take great comfort in the simple fact that though God may not be causing my painful circumstances, he allows them and turns them into His good.....really He does, I get this now and love it! 
Like the story of Joseph, boy did he go through it! But I love in the end when he faced his brothers in Egypt and said to them "What you intended for harm, the Lord intended for good!" 
I love that, his faith and confidence in God, despite the years of agony he went through, God restored the years, gave him power, wealth and influence, isn't that amazing!! 
I have had some rocky times, haven't we all?!  But you know what is so cool, God is going to use those times for a very good purpose one day and it will bless us as well as others and bring glory to God!!! Because He is the author and finisher and perfector of our Faith, He will do it!! 

Sunday, January 13, 2008

Sinner or Saint?

I was thinking recently...why is it that so many Christians are hung up on calling themselves, "sinners"? 
Our sin was dealt with at the cross.....Christ's death on the cross was satisfactory to God to pay the penalty for ALL sin, ALL sin has been covered by the blood.....so, now we are Alive in Christ and the New Testament has alot of new names for us with this new status, new nature, new gift of righteousness in Christ. 
One of the "titles" or "names" we are now given is SAINTS ~ I believe it is mentioned over 60 times in the N.T. and yes it is talking about you and I, those of us who are in Christ, that is!!
So, the next time you begin to utter those words.....(with your head hung low of course....) "I'm a sinner" - stop yourself! Instead say -the Bible says I am a Saint! 

What's that saying a man is what he thinks he is.....Christians, we are Saints ( did we do anything to earn this title, NOPE!) nonetheless, it is what we are!!!!

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Here in the love of Christ I stand!

  Tonight I was struggling with grief, I think and quite a bit of condemnation.....I couldn't put my finger on it fully, so I had to go listen to one of my favorite messages, "Victory over Condemnation" (listed under highly recommended teachings on grace)....I wanted to cry because, sometimes life hurts alot and I get really tired of where my emotions can take me....but I know God loves me, I know He is allowing me this season of my life to heal from essentially believing lies for so many years, He doesn't ever condemn me, this I know with confidence....I guess healing takes longer than I hoped, I just want to move on and move forward and get past all this baggage and get off all the layers of wrong believing that have piled up, the years wasted and years that led me to steep in condemnation consciousness, living in the Old Covenant thinking when God has promised us a New Covenant - I just long to be completely free.....I guess I can only say I am freer and long for more of a measure of freedom than I have today -I am so grateful God has brought me to this point in my life and I know it was a process that He will use for His good purposes and that give me comfort as well. 
Anyway, listening to this message again really solidified my confidence in God's acceptance of me and reminded me of  Satan's attempts to try and make me feel unworthy, but I know God will never be angry with me or rebuke me again, Ever! Thank God, He is so full of amazing grace for all who are in Christ. Which leads me to the last thing I want to share. The song,  "In Christ Alone", was sung at the end of the message, and it is such a powerful song...the words are so rich, here they are;
by Keith Getty & Stuart Townend

IN CHRIST ALONE my hope is found,
He is my light, my strength, my song;
This Cornerstone, this solid Ground,
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace,
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease!
My Comforter, my All in All,
Here in the love of Christ I stand.

In Christ alone! - who took on flesh,
Fullness of God in helpless babe!
This gift of love and righteousness,
Scorned by the ones He came to save:
Till on that cross as Jesus died,
The wrath of God was satisfied –
For every sin on Him was laid;
Here in the death of Christ I live.

There in the ground His body lay,
Light of the world by darkness slain:
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again!
And as He stands in victory
Sin’s curse has lost its grip on me,
For I am His and He is mine –
Bought with the precious blood of Christ.

No guilt in life, no fear in death,
This is the power of Christ in me;
From life’s first cry to final breath,
Jesus commands my destiny.
No power of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home,
Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand!

Keith Getty & Stuart Townend
Copyright © 2001 Thankyou Music



Friday, January 11, 2008

Lifting up spirits through praise and worship.......

I am having a woe is me day......dreary, PMS, up alot in then night with the baby, again! Four crazy boys, in a tiny house!!! Something inside me wants to scream...but I know this is a temporary emotional moment and I WILL make it....I WILL get by....right?? When my emotions take me where I don't want to go, often I will go and listen to Worship music and fill my soul and spirit with praise for my King and Saviour.......today, I was tempted to stay in my emotional woe and ICK.....but my wonderful musician of a husband got out his guitar, out of the blue and starting singing worship songs, I quickly perked up and joined right in.....sigh of relief, cares and worries and emotions melted right away as I was reminded of the joy I have in praising the Lord, just lifting up my voice to Him..........here are the words to one of my favorite worship song, I guess it just kinda sums up my constant heart to God.....

I cry out for your hand of mercy to heal me, I am weak and I need your love to free me, O Lord, My Rock, My Strength in Weakness come rescue me....For you are my Hope, Your promise never fails me, and my desire is to follow You forever, for You are Good, for You are Good, for You are good to me!

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Flowing streams of living water......

I recently had a dream that I keep picturing just a portion of over and over. I honestly don't remember what the dream was about, or how I got to the part that is stuck in my mind, but I really think it's the Lord! So what I remember is this, I am sitting on a lush grassy area, in front of a beautiful rush of water with rocks jutting out here and there, the water that is flowing is full ....not a waterfall exactly, but a curve and drop in the flow of a large stream or small river....and I just keep picturing the water full and free flowing with lots of vigor.....white water crests, beautiful to behold on a gloriously sunny day, and I would say the flow was more than bubbling but not quite roaring, and I am just peacefully sitting and watching it, never tiring of it. It is so refreshing to me!
And as I was writing yesterday's post I was reminded of Never thirsting in my spirit, because I have eternal springs of water flowing from me because of Christ living in me, and His Spirit pours out of me streams of living water.....and I sit peacefully and watch as this happens, not striving, not weary to "live" the Christian life....and I just thought how cool is that. A reminder from the written Word of God, and a picture in my dreams, as I was still in my sleep, of this awesome truth!
I have really been paying close attention to my dreams of late, and just asking the Spirit to show me, reveal to me the things he is bringing to me in my dreams......


(I'm adding to the orginal post, God just brought another layer of my dream to my heart, 1/12)
I keep picturing the flowing water in that dream, I only saw myself sitting beside it the one time in my dream, but now every time I see the water, I just see the water, full and flowing and refreshing, I don't see myself anymore...and I believe God showed me, because He lives in Me, He will cause His rivers of flowing water to flow out of me, through me, to others, not because of what I do, but because I am resting in Him, by faith, I rest in what He has done, He has become one with my spirit and the life I live, I live by faith in Him....oh His yoke is so easy and His burden is so light........

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Has the partial Gospel worn you out??

Okay so I am finally putting a plug in for the book I just finished "The Rest of the Gospel -When the partial Gospel has worn you out" by Dan Stone and David Gregory. It took me forever to read this book, very meaty, alot to chew on!!! But I highly recommend it!
Here are a few tidbits, that stuck out to me;

"I am the bread of life; he who comes to Me shall not hunger, and he who believes in Me shall never thirst." John 6:35
Has anyone ever noticed the promises here, we will NOT hunger, and NEVER thirst. This doesn't mean bodily hunger...this is in the spiritual realm, our spirits. He is saying that if we know whom we are in union with -God the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Spirit - if we know and live from that, there's no such thing as hunger or thirst. Jesus is you total spirit sufficiency. For the person who knows he is in Christ and Christ is in him, there's no occasion for a sense of lack. Jesus says, "I am your total sufficiency." This is something we come to know by revelation.

Jesus said to the woman at the well, "Everyone who drinks of this physical water will thirst again; but whoever drinks of the water that I will give him shall never thirst; but the water I will give him will become in him a well of water springing up to eternal life." John 4:13-14

"If any man is thirsty, let him come to Me and drink. He who believes in Me, as the Scriptures said, 'From his innermost being shall flow rivers of living water.'" John 7:37-38

What is going to flow out of us? Rivers of living water, or the Holy Spirit, too many of us have settled for a trickle. Out of you flow rivers of living water. If the river comes out of you, which direction does it flow? Away from you. So you can't run down to the river and drink your own spiritual water. We have to know that Christ Himself is this very moment filling us. We can rest, knowing that we are not hungry or thirsty. "I am your total sufficiency" (Isn't this so comforting!)

However, someone may ask, what about Matthew 6:33 -"Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you." The "these things" are food and clothing. Jesus promised that if we seek first the kingdom of God, we will have these things supplied. Another verse tell us to seek: "So I say to you, ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you" Luke 11:9-10
I thought I was doomed to be a seeker forever. I would never really find, though. I was taught, " You're saved, now you just keep on seeking the kingdom, keep on seeking, keep on seeking...." Perpetual labor and striving.
But I have discovered that through union with Christ I am no longer a seeker. I am a finder. Jesus said the kingdom of God is where? In us. Every kingdom has a king. And the King lives in us. The basic definition of our kingdom of God is the rule and reign of God. Well, that's taken place in our heart, hasn't it? So we're no longer seeking the kingdom. We're finders. Whatever the kingdom of God may look like in the future in the external, it has already begun internally for us. This frees us, we no longer need to be PREOCCUPIED or ANXIOUS about ourselves or our spiritual state.
Our outer person, our soul, can feel thirsty, hungry or needy....however, we can remind ourselves of the the truth: " I AM YOUR TOTAL SUFFICIENCY."
There is nothing spiritual about saying you're seeking more of Jesus. Because He can't give you any more. He can give you more awareness about Whom you already have, but He can't give you any more of Himself. You've got Him, and He's got you. The needs that preoccupy us so much of the time, that keep us focused on ourselves, have already been met in Christ.

It's so important to know that we don't have any more spiritual needs. We don't need any more life. We don't need any more spirituality. We don't hunger and thirst in our spirit. He who said, "I am the life, " has come to dwell within us. He has already satisfied our hunger. He is our total sufficiency. We are free to be preoccupied with God's world and His work, because we have been released from a preoccupation with ourselves.

~ I probably could put a bunch more, but in the interest of keeping it short and sweet.......~

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

not sure what to think lately....

Well, finally I am bored with blogging.....I think it's because the last 2 days have been ultra magnificent weather wise, today it got close to 70....now this I can live with....I think I am in a place where I need to let all my reading and learning and research actually soak in deep.....for so long now I have been getting revelation after revelation and it's been fast and furious and exhilarating....but something happenend in my mind and I just need a break.....from too much thinking I guess.....I have enough in there to go on for months I suspect....I just want to live day to day and walk by the Spirit in all the ins and outs and goings on of my life.....I am so grateful to be moving on in my life, moving on from our old church and mentalities that really were harming us, though we didn't know it ......I feel freer and so much more at peace and relaxed.....I really don't get stressed out anymore, well maybe here and there a bit, like when I am trying to get all my crazy kids to bed so I can finally chill out, that kind of brief stress.......but I was contemplating just today with a friend, how locked up we used to be, in a cage, or a box....just because of the undue burdens placed on us, the heavy millstones we just couldn't bear.....but somehow just smiled and acted as though we were just fine, when really we were in a fog so thick we just couldn't see our way through or out.....I don't know if this makes sense.....I think this may be the most random post I have written yet.....regardless, it is my thoughts....I really am glad to be in a place where I am enjoying God, enjoying being a Christian maybe for the first time genuinely.....in the very core of who I am I stand so secure in Christ....so confident, not in me, but because I know He really truly loves me, just because He does......I wish I had known this long ago....would have saved me years of insecurity....but praise be to God, He captured my heart, again, this time so fully, so deeply I can say " I love You" to Him and really really mean it!

Friday, January 4, 2008

"Everything"

Okay so I have seen this video clip on a few other blogs and have found myself watching it over and over again and weeping every time...I guess it's worthy of it's own post ....check it out...


HE will never forsake us!!!

Jesus is all I want, He's all I need - He's EVERYTHING!!!!

(Add in:)

So I was just talking with a friend about this video/skit, and he was wondering if it depicted Christ well or not...and I suppose that is a very good question to talk about. Here are some of my thoughts. The skit shows a girl come alive to Christ, maybe she just got saved and was made aware of the reality that Christ is with her and loves her lavishly, which he does....they enjoy sweet fellowship together, when along comes this "person" that distracts her from Christ for a minute, she doesn't want to walk away from Christ, but this other "person" lays it on thick and it seems as though he wins her momentary affection, however she is quite confused, and tries to get back to Christ....then along comes the offer of wealth tempting her and she tries to grab a hold of it but it is a fight, (remember back to when Christ was lovingly handing her blessings just to show her his affection) so now she grows more confused as she gets pulled yet again farther away by the temptation of wild partying fun and alcohol, she doesn't want it, then a beautiful woman tortures her, look at me, I am so glamorous, uh you're not....leaving her feeling low self worth on top of all the other empty/false lives the others try to get her to accept...then the enemy comes and says hey you feel so horrible, here just end it, he really lays it on thick.....meanwhile all this time Christ is there saying I am here, I'm not going anywhere, I want you -he begins to reel her back, or redeem her from the pit....she realizes he died for me so I can have life(my interpretation based on Christ acting out a death on the cross moment) what am I doing I am not staying here in this hell, and she fights her way back, but really it's him drawing her...and then you see this very real scenario of warfare, which Christ ultimately triumphs and they are reuinited .......! It's powerful and beautiful.....
So, does it seem like Christ is helpless to you.....or do you see that the enemy can pull us away from Christ at times, however, once we are united to Christ we will be his forever and he will always draw us back.....to me it shows a picture of my own life, at times the world or people or whatever took me away from my first love.....I do not believe it portrays a powerless Jesus, he knows right when to step in....I also think we need to believe by Faith, and that is what happened for the girl, she finally remembered the life he gave her and it was all she wanted...that's when Jesus began to break through mightily........it is so moving to me because it reminds me of my own life .....

Another thought, the tempters in this case looked mostly worldly and would seem to be more obvious tempters, however if I could add another character it would be the religiuos zealot trying to get her to get her act together, get it right, behave, obey the law, look externally righteous...I truly believe the enemy gets behind religion as well.......not everyone has a messy life and run ins with "worldly temptations", there are alot of people who could watch this and not be affected or moved because they didn't experience these kinds of struggles or temptations......that's why I have to add this additional character...

This is my personal interpretation and my thoughts..take them or leave them....or let me know what you think or how you'd interpret the story.......or how it impacted to you.......

Thursday, January 3, 2008

"Living for God" Is it possible......?

I do not have it all together, never have...sometimes I like to think I do, ha ha....but then I fall flat on my face and thankfully am reminded I can't do anything in my own strength....I can do all things through HIM! I don't have my act "together", I don't honestly know how to "live for God".....but what I do have is an indwelling Christ, a gift of righteousness and the Holy Spirit!! That is amazing...that I don't have to have it together....if I think I do, and act as though I do.....I am not allowing Christ's life to flow through me .....which is the only way to "live for God" -allowing Christ to live through me, as me is what it's all about!!
Jesus is all we need to "live the life", it isn't Jesus plus something, like Jesus plus quiet times, Jesus plus good works, Jesus plus how well your marriage works, or Jesus plus the sum of anything YOU can do.......because you or I will never PRODUCE a life that pleases Him, HE is the only life that pleases Him!!!! Although many Christians can look good to us, and look like they have it together from what we see and we think is "holiness", but to God he sees the heart and he will not unite with us until we realize we are living a lie......
Often when I find myself facing a situation that seems too difficult for me, I stop and say Lord you have to do this, cause I can't, but I know You can.....this is when His yoke is easy and His burden is light....when I let go of control and allow Him to flow through me.....
Even Jesus when he was on this earth said, "I only do what I see the Father doing......I don't do anything of myself......I only speak what I hear from the Father.....The works that I do, they're not my works; they're the Father's works who dwells in ME."

- "When Jesus said, "Learn from Me, " He meant to learn from Him how He lived. And how did HE live? He lived out of the Father. He didn't have any other secret. As author Gene Edwards has said, Jesus Christ never tried to live the Christian life. He didn't have a Bible at home to read; He didn't have a prayer group to go to. He let the Father live the life through Him. He learned how to live out of the resources of the Father, which are not of this seen and temporal realm, but of the unseen and eternal realm." -
(quote from "The Rest of the Gospel.....)

So if Jesus lives in us, which HE does if we are truly born again, we don't have to TRY to live for God...HE in us...lives the LIFE......."IT's CHRIST IN YOU, the HOPE of GLORY......" No amount of trying, striving or effort will release Christ's life through you it will only frustrate you to no end....it is your trusting by FAITH....take it by faith and say "Lord, your Holy Spirit is showing me this truth, that Christ lives in me, my old nature has died, I am alive in Christ..(.after all you embrace by faith that he died on the cross for your sins, you embraced by faith that Jesus is the Son of God...so you can embrace that Jesus lives in you, as you)....please captivate my heart with this awesome truth so that I can lay claim to it, and stop trying to live the life myself and allow Christ to flow in me, out of me, living His life as me......help me to know by revelation that you have joined your spirit with my Spirit and that there is Deity inside me.....I am a vessel, or ambassador, or container of God's Life.....Wow, Lord we contain your Life....that is amazing....Thank You, thank you...this is freedom, this is REST ....I truly can be still and rest and trust in You to do all things through me.....AMEN!!!"

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

Greater Revelation......

So over the course of the year God has revealed soo much to me about Him, His Gospel and His Grace....!! It has been mind blowing and wonderful.....do I say this to brag or to boast in myself...NOT AT ALL! I share this to revel in Him, and in the power of the Holy Spirit! You see for years I tried to "know" God more, actually I tried to know about God and I just wanted to know what I had to do...just tell me what to do God, was my mentality. Well, by His amazing grace, infinite knowledge and awesome power....he showed me a different way. HIs way...."knowing" Him through heart revelation by the power of the Spirit. Let me try and explain, we can't know about God with head knowledge, no amount of studying the Bible and memorizing can help us "know" God, it helps us know about God. I am not saying these things are a bad idea, by all means keep on doing them...But everything we truly know of God comes by revelation of the Holy Spirit. Here's a quote from the book I am currently reading that I think helps explain this better.
"The work of the Holy Spirit is to reveal to us the reality of the mysteries of God. These are in the unseen and eternal realm and as God's children they are our right to know, but only the Holy Spirit can tell us those realities.
Until the Holy Spirit tells us, God's unseen and eternal realities seem to be outside of us. So we set out to gain information about them , thinking that if we gain enough information, we can then produce the spiritual life, as if it were and outside thing - a thing - to be gained by kowledge. Of course, what we ended up with was not much spiritual life, but lots of information about it.
Unfortunately, there's no relationship between the amount of information we accumulate and the ability to live a spiritual a spiritual life. But there is a direct correlation between the amount of information we gain and our level of frustration. It's frustrating to know about something and not be able to know it or live it. It's frustrating to know something is there and not be able to lay hold of it. It always seems elusive, like the carrot dangling in front of you that you keep chasing but can never grab.
In the things of the Spirit, no amount of know-about gives you the ability to do. Our heart is for God, though, so the more we know about, the greater our desire is to do it, and the more we try to do it. But trying to live the Christian life through our own effort is like trying to put a cube into a spherical hole. It doesn't fit. The only One who can live the Christian life is Christ. Only His life fits the hole. But we still try to force it to work ourselves, and that becomes very, very frustrating.
We are meant to be frustrated when we are trying to produce something that we are incapable of producing. It's the goodness of God to let us be frustrated. If God were to interrupt our frustration before we were completely frustrated, we would think, "I've learned how to do it. I'm not frustrated anymore." But we wouldn't have learned anything. So He says, "Go right on with your program until you have exhausted the library of Christian literature on how to be spiritual. When you have exhausted all of that, when you have come to your end, you are ready to be taught by My Spirit." At that point, where else do you have to go?" (excerpt from "The rest of the Gospel, when the partial Gospel has worn you out." Dan Stone and David Gregory)

Well, that is exactly what happened to us...we tried and tried, sometimes didn't try at all and threw our hands up and wallowed a bit, then would muster up our strength to try to live the christian life,.... truly we felt that frustration...and eventually came to the end of our rope.....that's when the lightbulbs starting going off, that's when God's power through the Spirit broke into our spirits and hearts and made our eyes pop wide open to His Grace!!!
So I encourage you, to not try to have it all together, to be okay with failing and looking as messy as you really are.....it's a Great way to be...because then and only then will you have eyes to see and ears to hear the glorious things that He will reveal!!!!

Grace to you....

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Thoughts for the New Year.....

So it's the New Year, what's the big deal..it's just another day.....??? Actually, I like to think of it as I do of each morning, fresh mercy for the day... instead fresh mercy for the year. An opportunity to reflect on God's faithfulness to us, knowing he will continue to be faithful in this year to come.... it's like another layer added to all the layers of his past faithfulness to us, he just keeps on providing and keeps on showering us with his grace....
My dad said, "The New Year is a chance to say what the apostle Paul said in Philippians ..I strain forward to what lies ahead....I press on toward the goal to win the supreme and heavenly prize to which God in Christ Jesus is calling us upward..." Yep, that's a great thought, Dad!! So let's press in, ...I pray for all, a greater and greater Revelation of the Glorious Hope in Christ we have and we can live in it Now!!!
God bless you all .....!!!